When I'm pretend to be tough ~

不管男女老少，都是需要别人的在乎、关心及疼爱，但我们却伪装着坚强，死撑着不让别人看到自己脆弱的一面！人啊，都只是口是心非！
当我说我不介意的时候，其实我真的非常介意你们对我所做的一切。
当我说我没事的时候，不必像情侣般地呵护我，不过至少看着我几秒，说道：‘我知道你在硬撑着’。
当我说我已经习惯了一个人的生活，一个人看电影、逛街，不需要你们的陪伴，去忙你们的吧，其实我真的需要人陪伴！
我说我不介意、没事、去忙吧，是因为我不想你们因为要迁就我而感到不开心、厌倦、甚至是有一天的讨厌！
所以我唯有选择继续地撑着，继续地走一个人的路，继续过一个人的生活！
when I'm pretend to be tough, is just because I reluctant to see anyone unhappy because of my personal stuff, so sorry, I had no any other choices! Take care ;)

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

曾经✖

‘曾经’这两字，的确是千年以来，无法破解的毒咒！
怎么说呢？如下～
✖曾经相识
✖曾经拥有
✖曾经被疼爱
✖曾经付出
✖曾经相爱
✖曾经大伙儿在一起的快乐时光
所有的曾经曾经，却成了如今的回忆！
我在想，如果不是我付出得太多、过火，也不会造成今天这种田地！
我在想，这是不是我的错？
朋友都劝我不要不要，不要拿自己的真心开玩笑！
付出太真，太容易让自己牺牲，太容易让自己沉沦，太容易不顾一切搞得满是伤痕！
我真的太笨，明知道你们是错的人，明知道我们有缘无分，但是我真的奋不顾身！
可能永远没有所谓的永恒，但是我不愿放弃这里边的一点点可能，我宁愿笨也不想要悔恨！
到后来，虽然我跌得遍体鳞伤，不过至少我没有后悔！
到最后，虽然我们大家分道扬镳，各自各生活，甚少来往，不过至少，我们相遇过！
也许这就是我们之间唯一一点可以让我们联系着，虽然关系不比从前，不过至少不会沦为陌生人！
做不到没有血缘关系的一家人，朋友是唯一的选择。
也许就应该为这点而感到庆幸了吧？！



Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

旧伤口仍然在痛，新伤口刺入心肺！

啊公，你的孙子就快要崩溃了，真的！
你来救救我好吗？
最近真的是有很多很多的事情发生在我身上！
我没有人可以依靠，可以倾诉！
连唯一可以让我依靠的您也离我而去，我还可以靠谁？
难道我身边就没有一个可以以真心对待我的人在我失落的时候让我稍微靠一靠吗？
今天Vincent问我之前与他们发生什么事情，我傻了眼，我要如何告诉他呢？
因为他们对我的看法，太荒谬！荒谬得让我难以启齿地告诉他！
而最近所发生的事情，实在让我烦恼！
又如何？压力时谁能帮你解压？
烦恼时谁能帮你解困？
到后来还不是要独自一人承受！

最近的我，感到无比的孤独！即使身边有不少人在我身边环绕着，不过真心的，又有几个？
也许我早就应该习惯一个人生活，说真的，我对于身边的一切人与事，已经逐渐失去了信心，离绝望的地步，已经不远了！我真的很累了！也许是时候歇歇了！

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

不舍，心如刀割！

一个七个月又三天大的小孩，名为高子媃(媃媃)，自出娘胎以来，就受尽折磨、痛楚，与病魔抗战！

先撇开她的父母亲别说，就连我这个与她没有任何关系的人看了这个片段，眼泪也忍不住从眼眶掉落！
一个小小的小孩，来到这个世界上，不但没得到任何享受，却得承受这极大的痛楚再而离开这世界！
试问，老天爷公平吗？您真的与这个小孩和她的父母亲开了个极大的玩笑！
给了他们一个长得那么可爱的宝宝，却在短短的七个月里把他们心爱的宝宝带走！
给了个机会让宝宝出世来这世上，却无情地剥削了她继续成长的权利！
她的父母亲心如刀割！

但愿媃媃能在另一个西方极乐世界，生活得很好，不再被病魔缠绕！
媃媃，妳很棒了！



Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

my life ? yeap, definitely !

I prefer that I'm still a little kid than growing up !
At least I unnecessary to face any problem if I'm a kid, right ?
But unfortunately, it's impossible !
Everyone will grow up and getting old and older !
So, what to do ?
It's just an only way, be TOUGH and FACE !
That's my life, nope, it shall be everyone's life, am I right ?

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

一个字 - 烦或忧。

最近实在太多事情发生了，多得让我心里有了一种从小到大都不曾有过的害怕、甚至可说是恐惧！
自我懂事以来，从来就不曾为我的生活担忧过，因为我从来不曾体会到赚钱背后的辛苦，从来只会饭来张口，衣来伸手！要什么，妈咪就给什么，她给我的，是一个美好的生活、良好的环境。他说的对，我的确是个少爷，就只会闹别扭，耍少爷脾气，对不起，胜！
但是正在成长的我，似乎也是时候把我这些年来‘娇生惯养’的脾气给收起来，慢慢来体会这个世界的残酷！
至于最近发生了什么事情让我如此的害怕、如此烦恼，我就不方便说了，不过你应该懂吧？我有跟你提起过，你也劝过我了。不过你最近都很忙，所以有些事情都不能向你诉说。
最近我不停想着这些事情，我承受不到那种压力，在房间的时候，我卸下了面具，眼泪如涌泉般流出，也许你会说我软弱吧，不过哭，也是一种自我保护。



真希望翌日醒过来，所有不开心的事情就会随风飘散、所有问题迎刃而解，剩下的就只有开心的回忆。不过，往往天意弄人，世上的事情，又岂能尽顺人意？
我知道你很忙，所以你没有时间我也不会怪你，而且你也需要谈恋爱啊，兄弟俩心照，不用说出来的！

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

thanks, Mummy ! ♥

On that day ( 11st March 2011 )which is Friday, Me, Mummy and Xiiao Ling went for our brunch nearby my house area. After that, we went to my college because they need to wait for my class which start at 2.30pm ended up at 4.00pm and sent Xiiao Ling back to her house which stated at KL and having our dinner at her house. When we arrived my college and heading to class, I slide down on the floor because it was raining heavily and made the floor wet.
Oh my god ! I felt embarrassed because of it but fortunately, just few of them who saw that included mummy and (XL). Hahahahaha !
Both of them laughed on me too, so bad ! Arghhhh !
After my class had ended up, we heading to One Utama and shopping right there.
Suddenly, Mummy asked me to bring her looking for shoes's shop !
She said want to buy me a slipper for avoiding from falling down anymore !
How touch am I ! I felt so warm and thanksful to her ! REALLY !
At first she said want to buy me a Crocs's slipper, but I saw a nice slipper inside Adidas and I had decided to purchase it, but of course, Mummy paid for it, hahahhaha !

Thanks bah, my beloved mummy, love you ! ♥

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

chit-chatting at 5am ~

Oh my god ! It's already 5 something, but 3 of us - Me, XiiaoLing and Alan haven't slept yet !
2 of them keep whining right there, hahahahahaha ~
Alan acting as a english professor and keep correcting my grammar beside me, LOLS !
By the way, we were enjoying with our conversation ;)
Suddenly thinking of you, what happen to you during this few days ?
Am I irritated you ? You're not in the mood always !
You said you worried me, but do you know that I'm worrying about you too ?
Please tell me as well if you had something on your mind, I will help to solve !
You promised me that will tell me everything, proof it okay ?

I really worrying you :((




Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

don't scold me without any reason !!

DAMN ! got scold once reached !
Arghhhhh ! Can't afford that !
Don't scold me without any reason, as u know my temper are hot as well !
I'm respecting you and i hope that you did it back to me too !
I'll accept if i done anything wrong but conversely; you had to apologize if you done anything wrong to me no matter you're older, elder or younger than me even my families members !
DEVOT THANKSGIVING !

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )

what women want ?? then what i want ??

WHAT WOMEN WANT ? then anyone know that what i want ?
What i want is just simple, everyone around me live happily and treat everyone sincerely included me, especially my friends and my families members !
While i'm watching the HongKong drama which named "我知女人心@What Women Want" inside the theater, i received your msg !
Actually nowadays many problems had been appear and around me, i felt freaking down with those FUCKING problem !
One of the problems, i believed that u knew that ! Actually i still thinking the thing that happened before ! So i'm scared of that ! I can't afford the same problem exactly with that anymore ! So please, never do that on me same as them ! NEVER !
You are one of my beloved families members, and the only one that i can share my happiness and sadness with you ! You had made me touched with your action and your promised to me ! I'm glad that have you as my families members ! REALLY !
You must prove that what you had promised me, never abandone me and leave me alone, long lasting our families relationship, 2 of us are family forever and ever, never be end, okay? deal? <3

Jimmy Maxime ( JM )